Monday, March 29, 2010
我的内心世界到底藏着一个怎样的我？

别人不了解我

那我又了解自己多少？

一个不了解自己的人怎么能让别人了解？

以前的我放不下过去

因为过去的经历学会了很多东西

但也让我害怕很多东西

什么都怕

因为怕失去所以珍惜

但我到底有没有想过越珍惜反而越容易失去

因为对自己有要求

一定要自己做得到

认为自己做得到别人也要做到

为了让自己开心身边的人都不开心

那就是以前的我

现在的我因为一个长达4年的噩梦改变了

但不完全改变

对自己还是有一定的要求

但现在明白到别人不是我

同样的我也不是别人

可以一个人做很多事情

但绝对不是喜欢只是可以做到

其实我是有脾气

但不知怎么了一看到惹我生气的人就生气不起来

所以就干脆一点说我没有脾气

有时候的我我因该说大部分的时候都很吵

很多人受不了

但其实我也能静下来

不理我就行了

有时候也很孩子气

好像长不大

好像什么都不管

但其实上我知道发生什么事

只是觉得没有必要想太多

只要记得最初的快乐就好了

但这样的我会开心一点

我真的很想身边的人都开开心心的

我想带给他们欢笑

因为听见你们的笑声我才会真正开心

这些其实都是缺点

优点或许只有一个

就是我帮人真的不需要回报

不要好处

只要是在我能力范围内我一定帮

那些认识我的人，

对不起我不是一个很好的人

我不完美

缺点很多

谢谢你们能够容忍我

有什么地方不好

说出来给我一点时间我一定会改

希望未来的日子里能带给你们更多的欢笑

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Saturday, February 20, 2010
Hello...我的PaRaDiSe
好久没update了
寂寞吗？
我不知道忙碌的人有多久没抬头看看天空
我就常看天空
蓝蓝的天白白的云让人有种舒服的感觉
有些人回想起那首歌但这post和那首歌完全没有关联
我常常幻想云因该是像棉花软软的很舒服
风轻轻地吹
那种感觉很好
最近有一种感觉
让我的心觉得暖暖的
虽然已经过了好久但那感觉还在
一个小妹妹
她的手好小
她牵着我的食指和中指
So SWEET~
甜甜的暖暖的
这感觉真奇妙

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[9:07 PM]
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Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Babies mind are just like a white sheet of paper
Write only the correct things on it
Cannot make any mistake on it
Cause when you make a mistake no matter you use liquid or correction tape
The mistake would still be there
The mind it's polluted
It hurts me to see kids mind being polluted
How good it would be if their mind are just like computer
When there is virus just format it and it would be back to normal again
Next time if i have kids i hope that i can teach them the right way and the correct things


Personal feelings:
I dont know why when i know that you are unhappy
No matter how happy i am
My heart would feels as if it drop down from a very very high place
I don't know how to console people
And i also don't think you need mine
Cause if the person is not the right person
No matter what the person says also no use
If it's the right person dont have to say anything just a pat on the sholder or a hug you'll also feel the warm
I'm sure i'm not the right person so i rather shut up
Well but whenever i'm down the innocent face of kids would always be able to make me smile back =)

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[8:25 AM]
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Friday, January 22, 2010
恨是术心旁加个很
代表着要很用心
我宁愿很用心的去爱
这样日子会好过一点
我不恨了
从2010年开始
我不恨你
因为我要把恨你的力气去爱只得被爱的人

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[6:36 AM]
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Thursday, January 14, 2010
Here i am graduating soon
The only person i'll miss i guess is...
She the best i've ever seen
She understands students
I must say she the reason that make me not regreting going to ITE
Met many people but when they hear you say you are from ITE
Human: Oh
Not all of them are like that there are still some nice people in this world
It makes the world a better place with these people around
I'll never forget who had always been nice to me
I'll definately be nice to them too
For those people who look down on us well what i can say is Yes I am from ITE but i don't waste 3 years there i'm certified too.
I won't comment on those who looks down on me let you comment whatever you like
As long as i myself dont look down on myself

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[3:55 AM]
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Saturday, January 9, 2010
Studies many people don't like to study
As for me i'm even worst i don't even like to read
I always said i'll read when Singapore snow
But now I do read
It wasn't as bad as i think
I always say textbooks are my sleeping pills
But after i discover my learning style
Amazingly I got an A for the previous exam
You want say it's my luck???
Let me tell you now it's my effort
I do study not for others
But for my future
No matter what i am in your eyes
I don't care
Cause I know very well that it's my effort
I can't controll your thinking
But i can make sure you don't affect me
Back to my primary 1 days
I remember that my english was still ok
As i read subtitles when watching shows
The older i get the lesser i read
I'm not affected by gadgets
Cause no matter what game i have
I would automatically hand to my mum to keep
During exam period in Primary school days
Actually I won't go play
Even it's just beside me
Let her keep just to let her worry less
Seems like when i was younger i'm more sensible
My mum is always worried about me
Even now thou i'm like not young
That kind of feeling i guess i only can feel it
When i'm somebody's mum
I do love children
But i guess the love for others kid is different from own kid
For now what i can do is be a good daughter, grand daughter and niece
Don't ever try to comment on my family member
Comment on me if you want
Good or Bad up to you
It won't affect me
Graduting soon after about 16 years of study
I'm gonna work hard for anything in life now
At least if i failed i won't regret
And would continue to work hard
在哪里跌倒就在哪里爬起来
努力把一切做到最好
这样才对得起自己

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[4:37 AM]
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Friday, January 8, 2010
Human got angry cause of many different things happen
As for me I don't get angry easily
Some might say i have no guts to get angry
Well what's the real reason i can't say anything
I can't control what you people think
I always controlled my anger
So far no one around me has seen me get really angry
So i guess i can control it pretty well
Only i know what would i do when i get relly angry
Cause that time no one was at home
I usually don't vent my anger straight on that person or others
But i do have my limits
I won't say what's my limits here of cause
As some people would "accidentally" or by "coincidence"
Try out my limit
When you got over my limit i also don't know what would i do
Just now got a feeling that i'm gonna explode anytime
It's feels terrible when i don't know where to vent out
So i decided to go out for a walk alone
It really calms me down quite alot
Another good point of being alone
That is don't have to be afraid that would suddenly vent all anger out at others
And it really calms me down faster too
After that came home and complain to someone on phone
All anger GONE
I know that keep controlling anger is not a very good choice
It's not good
But at least it's better than being guilty
Have you been guilty for something before
I did
I won't say for what thing i got guilty
But it's really terrible
I can't sleep
I blame myself
So i won't let anger take over my brain
For the time being
Future i don't know
Nothing can be said beforehand
Cause future nobody knows
Can have a planning but planning can change as times goes by
Everything can change even human
I know i'm changing
Good or Bad
You can say what you want
I only choose things that is good for me

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Wednesday, January 6, 2010
2010 is a good start for me
I started to spent time with my family members
The feeling is quite good
Just a simple chat can makes me happy
Just as simple as that
For any relationship to build up it takes time
Spent more time with the person you want to be close with
Put more effort in and i'm sure that person would feel it
But if it's not meant to be yours letting go is a better choice
Don't feel that you have do so much it's a pity to let go
Cause this is what you want to do nobody is forcing you
Treasure everything you have before it's gone
I won't think the bad way anymore
Now i feel that letting go is really a good choice
I dont regret cause i did treasure
Nobody force me i did it on my own free will
Relationship I'm sure it's a thing that money can't buy
People might think that i did gave money to the person i love thats enough
But what that person need is your accompany
Trust is another thing that you can't buy it with money
True if you throw one stack of money infront of a person ask them to trust you
They said they trusted you
But what's in the heart only that person know
I can say 100 times i trust you
But when something happen...
Well weather it's a real trust only that person know
I'm still a human i would also think that way sometimes
But what matters is do you change
Change for the better or getting worst
This is your choice only you can decide
Some people might think that i'm very lonely cause i go anywhere alone
But being alone is something i like
I'm the only child
Since young i play anything alone
I love to talk thats why sometimes there is someone with me is quite good too
But now i have already used to being alone
As i have different topic to communicate
I find it difficult to communicate with others(other than customers)
But there's some activity i love which cant do alone
Imagine i'm playing badminton alone what a joke
Go to a steamboat resturant and say i want to have steamboat alone
Well friends are improtant too not only all this
When you are sad there's some friends around to play and shout
The pain would go off faster too
To my friends: If you really got no one to talk to I'm willing to listen to you
but forgive me as i don't know how to communicate with others don't know how to console others too all i can do is just sitting beside you
Ends this with:Feel free to comment on the cbox good or bad up to you cause i don't care anymore this is my life i decide on my own not on the comments others gave i know what's good and what's bad for myself

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[6:02 PM]
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Starting a New Blog
As it's a new year
There's no need to mention what happens in 2009
As what matters is the Future
Choose this blog skin is because I feel that
All Babies are like angels
They are Adorable
They are Innocent
Most importantly is that they get satisfied easily
Parent is their everything
When they started crying maybe a sweet would cheer them up again
Few days ago I saw a little girl she's very cute
She can jump up in happiness just because her mum gave her alittle bit of Soft Drinks
As we grown eventually we forgotten that kind of simple happiness that we had
We forgotten that we are also the everything of our family members
Things isn't getting complicated
It's what we think that makes it complicated
Letting go of something might not be as bad as we think
It might be better sometimes if we let go what's not ours
It's a new year weather it's a new start it depends how you want it to be
This is my life
I want to live it to the fullest
I would like to end this post with something to my family members:
You are my everything without you I'm nothing

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